First Half Week of College

School is terrifying. There we go. 

Now I shall move on. I can do college. I will do college. I will make it through college, and I will learn, and I will have fun. It will be hard. Some days I will probably despair of ever getting through all of it. But I will be fine, and I will move past those moments, hours, and days. 

I may feel like an imposter now and then. That's okay, and I do belong. 

Speaking to one within

A new motto of mine, 

Little sister of my heart: 

I can do hard things. 

Talking to myself talking to someone else

I can relate to this quite a bit right now. Growing up in this world seems so difficult, and so often it feels like there is no community of support to all the little fledglings trying to take flight.
Sometimes, when it feels like everything's falling to pieces, it's just the world rearranging itself into a new pattern around you, and I really feel like it'll always get better somehow, even if it's just tiny things like noticing a sunbeam on a wall that strikes you as really beautiful, or an old friend suddenly showing up to just give you a hug.
Sometimes, when life and the future feels really overwhelming, it can help to choose just one thing to work towards and accomplish, something that you know you'll thank yourself for later.
This is a song I often listen to when I'm feeling really down or angry or just generally irritable and unsure of everything: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K8k9rD7lx9c
I hope this helps, dearheart. You are loved. Bless us to bless each other. <3 p="">

Letters Blog: August 15th, 2012. Wednesday (This is the second to last letter)

To the downtrodden and discouraged

Dear one-who-strives-for-change,
You are accomplishing much, even as you pedal swiftly
backwards, retracing your steps and starting over.
The world is heavy on your shoulders, but I truly believe
you can figure a way out, a way around and through. You
don't have to follow the same path as everyone else, and
you don't have to completely
avoid it. Weave your path out, around, and through.
Don't ever back down just because of fear or timidity,
face your fears, become that courageous person you've
always wanted to be. I can see you becoming, don't be
discouraged; though the road is long, you're always at
the beginning, in the middle, and on the
end of something in your life.
Remember the past, focus on the present, and keep
your eye on the future and everything will be just fine,
I promise.
You have so much help, so much encouragement and
support!
Remember your friends, family, acquaintances,
remember the people who give you hope and inspiration,
as well as the people who give you an example of how
not to be. You can learn from anything and anyone, so long
as you see with a soft heart and an open mind.
Live well, dear one, and change will come to you.
I salute thee,
Amoniel