All Things Pass; Letters blog: May 6th, 2011. Friday.

Another letter to Om.

 Voitko kertoa, että en halua 

puhua hänelle?

Yin and yang,
Om and Yo.
Two letters each to two people 

who seem complete opposites
in my eyes.
Here I am, writing the second 

letter to you, hoping you won't
see this letter like I thought 

you would never see that word.
But you did, and you're trying 

to justify yourself to me again. I
don't care, I'm sorry, but I really

 just don't care.
I don't want to talk to you, I 

don't want to address you directly,
I don't even want to see you 

sometimes.
I don't want to be mean to you 

like I'm afraid I will If I try to
talk to you.
But most of all, I'm afraid of 

becoming friends with you again.
I did it once.

As I've said before, I don't rue 

the friendship I had with you, as
a matter of fact, I cherish it.
But you're a different person now. 

You were then, too.

You repulse me, this one word 

will give me away, but you really
are a traitor, you're betraying 

yourself, though you may not
think it.
You betrayed me.
You think you're rebelling against 

society and it's rules, but
you're still letting it decide who 

you are.
Om, you know nothing, though 

you think you know everything.
You think I was trying to hold 

on in some way when I behaved
the way I did, but I was trying to 

let go.
I promise I will never intentionally 

hurt you, but I have no power
over how you decide to take 

my silence.
~Amoniel